the whine chronicles

LIFE=over rated time that just drains every little drop of energy outta you

devilme619 — Sun, 11 Dec 2011 16:29:01 +0000

So this one is gonna be super short..I really doubt i have readers anymore other than a best friend who insists on being a stalker…:/

So my last post was about loving love how you turn into a pathetic lovestruck blob only to destroy all of the sweet stuff that made you weak in the knees..I can now officially say that I am a self-proclaimed destroyer of relationships that mean the world to me…So now i am as lost as I have no idea which is the lost(est) creature…a puppy? ..yeah well if thats the answer i am that….oh welll…like everybody would’ve guessed by now i am the pathetic love-struck blob who has made sure that anyone who can possibly try and get close to the awesome moi shall be shooooed away with my narcissist,spaz like,introvert,dumb,bi-polarish nature …

So yes,getting back to the title; life is just an over-rated scene that just looks pretty in movies but ends up being as sucky in reality…Nobody gets the white horse ride with the love of your life,nobody gets to be with someone who will love them no matter how freaky you get…there should be a mates for life thing right??I mean okay yes 20 is not really the age to be talking about true love cuz of all the freaky hormones and immaturity etc etc…but i don’t love that easily…i crush A LOOOOOOOT i agreee but when you love someone you just know it….don’t you??you wanna be perfect for him,you’ll go out of your way to please them,everytime you see them walk into a room or the college cafe for that matter your heart skips a bit…you get wobbly super happy even though its been over a year since you’ve fallen for him..and now i still feel all of that except I know I can’t be with him..that he leaves the country afte three months for good and i don’t get to see him ever again..that we’ve grown apart so much that he doesn’t even wanna be friends with me online.that I just get a we’ll pretend to be friends with each other talk…and I have to move on and that is the ultimate nightmare of my life…How can I tell someone that if he wouldn’t be in my life I would be the daftest creature who won’t survive one day without him…its not just that I depend on him too much…its just everything loooks like a big black hole without him in the picture..How can i even tell someone that even the tiniest mention of the stupid visa makes me bawl like a buffoon in public..This is pathetic I KNOW but honestly I cannot help it…This guy has been there for me when i was a huge mess..and now you can guess why I love him sooo much…He was there when I couldn’t talk to anyone when even my family didn’t realize what i was going through…He made everything seem nicer and saner…and now all i see is the same old crap where I don’t wanna be..I don’t want anymore fake smiles and cute talks and no seriousness..the one person who treated me like an adult is going to be out of my life for real and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it…I guess I deserved it for all the crap I’ve done..I guess that’s how karma actually works…All I know there is gonna be vacuum in my life if he goes away..everything would be as empty as before as fake as the times before i met him..

So if anyone reads this please do help me out…I can’t write love songs,I can’t even say it out loud…..All I want is for him to stay with me I don’t even care if its gonna be just friends…Pleaaaaaase do help….THanks

You Win some you lose some(most of it) but you still love LOVE!

devilme619 — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 17:18:12 +0000

This year has been quite the highlight of my life.I mean I have so far lived like the most bogus and boring as hell life on earth…I mean it you know…Throughout schoool i was the quite one before that well..its pretty blurry but other than being bitten by dogs and chased around by cows I did pretty much NOTHING for my entire 19 years!!!
Depressing you might think..but actually one year made me realize how much i miss that..being the quiet introvert book worm…
So lemme tell you beforehand for anyone who hasn’t read my blogs ever *bless yours souls* but yes I am not intellectual or a brain that i would use words like trajectory or philanthropy or whatever not for that matter but you get the wind of what m saying right??I shall keep it simple cuz well I am ranting and whining and the simpler the better..
So yes anywho…like i was saying my life so far has been super ummm bleh..I had been you know the perfect daughter never broke curfew did pretty decent in class but all in all no trouble…but for some reason i thought well m 20 i must change and there i went falling in love for the guy i always knew was way out of my league..its pathetic actually..i know I can never be with him but i still hopelessly daydream about him..I actually started having a crush on him like when i just entered college and I saw him for the first time on my 18th!! *_* and its been three years and 1 month and 17 days and I still get weak in the knees when I see him..siiiiiiigh
Sooooo before you guys think i am some nut job obsessing over a freak lemme describe you this super awesome Adonis of mine
All the super awesome things that make him soooo well HoT
1.He has the most adorable smile a person can ever have..like it just has to make you smile back cuz when you see him your heart just skips a beat (creeepy???)
2.He is like this super tall warm squishy person with the comfiest hug.Its like when he hugs me I can’t think of a better place than just being right there forever.
3.HE IS WARM!!!!yes i”ve said it already but he is like super warm even when its freezing outside…he could be your human blanket.
4.He plays the GUITAR!!!!*swoooooons* when i din know him that well i thought he played the drums…like soooo uggghhh
5.He CAN SING!!!!!! I wish he serenades me once..but i can live with pretending all the love songs for me
6.He is clean and yet scruffy and can dress like perfection when he wants to.
7.He does not drink or smoke,which has to be the awesomest thing a guy should be like..
8.He cares about me like no other person has.
9.He knows when I am pissed or sad or happy or plain gay or annoyed or just having a blonde moment or even zoned out for that matter.Otherwise trust me people just think i am either happy or sleepy.which is kinda rude i tend to show other emotions too you know.
10.He panics when I cry like a baboon but otherwise just wonders if something is wrong with me cuz i cry sooo much!! :/
11.He looooooooves cheesecake.
12.Loves my butter pound cake.
13.Lets me whine as much as I want.
14.Yells at me when I am unreasonable.
15.Takes me wherever he goes (mostly)…Even though I am a complete klutz and end up embarrassing myself every two seconds.
16.Annoyingly honest.That i hit him for.
17.He has the cutest nose toooo…ooooh i wish I could put up a picture of his *siiiighs* but someone might just muurder me for that..
All in all HE IS THE PERFECT GUY!!! <3
And no matter how mad I get at him I know I will still be in love with him and no matter how hard I try to let go of the feelings for him..He will always be the first guy I ACTUALLY fell in Love with.
This you must’ve guessed is the blissful bit of the year.The part where I won meself some TRUUUUUE LOOOOOOOVE *_*.Also yes I am still in lala land about it still starstruck to put it right
Now comes the not so Blissful part..the part where I lose most of the important things in life.
I somehow knowing how skillful i am managed to ruin everything nice in a month.I ended up losing the trust of the (very weirdly and I still don’t know how that happened) most important person in my life.I confess to you all..I my loves am the stupidest creature God could’ve created..sometimes I actually doubt if he wanted me here in the first place..If I could take it all back I would…in a blink..I haven’t regretted anything in my life,actually never thought I would.Its quite the situation I am in.And now I wonder if I even deserve the love I get from him.I know if he lets me go I would be completely lost without him.But hurting him this much was the last thing on my mind…I just feel that he deserves soo much better…I dunno if he even loves me the way he used to now…I used to be HIS baby…now m just uummm me(?)..Actually he does say he doesn’t love me just likes me more like a friend but I guess I am just stubborn and I still don’t believe that.I just hate the way things turned out…I would pray that he forgives me someday.someday he realizes that He was never JUST a guy to me and it took me three years to fall in love with him and not a day.I’ll wait I guess..I’ve been told not to and that its a stupid idea and thats not the way life works but don’t you think…when love happens you will just KNOW.And that nobody could possibly have the same affect on you after two years of knowing them.
you get weak in the knees when the person kisses you slightly or the goosebumps you get with the hugs.
So you seee I did lose something but I did end up realising that love exists in all its glory and it makes the world sooooo bright at one point and gray at another.It sure does give another person the super power to hurt you again and again but in the end you know all that you go through for love just makes you stronger and if you truly love someone you won’t care about the wrongs in their life,you’ll take time sure you would to forget the pain but when you remember all the happy times all the reasons you fell in love with that person..all the hurt it would just seem like…NOTHING!!!
So yes we might love saying that lave sucketh but secretly all of us know it doesn’t..it doesn’t have to be a fairytale where everything is all yiipppidyy yaayyiieee forever..it takes effort LOTS of it..
So this is me rambling about my idea of love and I completely lost track of what I was saying..So I shall stop now…
BUT TO ANYONE WHO READ THIS PLEEEEEASE JUST NEVER STOP LOVING SOMEONE YOU THINK IS THE ONE..NO MATTER HOW MUCH IT HURTS AT A POINT..WHEN YOU THINK OF IT..EVERYTHING WAS WORTH IT..:D
AND NO I DO NOT MEAN THAT YOU SHOULD LOVE SOME CRAPPY BUM WHO DOESN’T CARE ABOUT YOU AT ALL..JUST SOMEONE WHO KNOWS HOW PRECIOUS YOU ARE!!
Big Hug
Much love
lovestruck

Confessions of an eccentric liar!!!

devilme619 — Thu, 03 Mar 2011 11:26:10 +0000

Sooooo ummm its been long since i invaded the virtual world with a little more of my whining…well its just that i found certain people who actually would listen to me for a change…man its a bloooody amzing feeling…
So yes now back to my ranting and whining…well the thing is this time there won’t be any….its been 3 months since the year began and a looooot has happened to change everything around me…
For starters my sister got engaged to the same ol guy i once bitched about for an hour…yaaaayiiiie
a cousin got married and all yaaayiee again
I lost an aunt to freaky doctor’s ego filled i-know-it-all attitude…the thing is life sucks…just when you think things are at its best it gives you a big blow that’ll just make you wish you were better off dead….the thing that holds you together are your friends and family..
welll in my case its more of friends cuz the world knows i am pathetic when it comes to humans and emotions…sooooo anywho throughout all this i’ve had my bestfriends stand by me weirdo that they are they love me to death for some godforesaken reason…its sort of odd…but yeah people are creepy sooo its understandable i guess…
So yes these friends that i talk about they’ve trusted me obviously they expect me to tell them everything cuz apparently thats how the world works…but NOT me..i gotto hide things i gotto keep everything a secret sooo what happens is the few ppl i get close to i lose them and that happened to me…and i can’t whine about it because i know i am wrong and its the worst feeling on earth…so here it is..
My name is Shreya I have zero clue about emotions and feelings and people.I lie,I betray trusts,I basically do not deserve other humans around me.I hurt people I am the evilest little thing created,I apparently use people for my benefits also…So yeah life is at its best right now because that one person i thought I would never lose discovers all this about me and like any other sane human being he would just go away too…soooo yaaaaayiee
I confess i tell the truth only to realize its just a little too late for any of that.If anyone decides to read this post for i don’t know some i have to die tonight joy…listen to me just BE HONEST don’t wait don’t ignore that teeny tiny conscience voice speaking to you…the bloody thing is always right…its annoying but true…learn from random people’s blogs or stories or something…I should’ve!!
Thats it i guess….i’ll come up with something better later

more whining for ihm goer and other randomness

devilme619 — Sun, 22 Aug 2010 21:17:57 +0000

sooooo m back n not no m not back wid a back o something more like ppl shall groan n moan n shudder when they read this post of mine……But if you’ve read any of my sad ass blogs you must have realised how much human feelings matter to me….
Anyway my best friend has started a stupid countdown til the day she leaves town and leaves me to wallow in self-pity(plz don’t try 2 make sense of anything i say…its wasting major seconds of your life)…Anyways she is like the only person who keeps me sane in this crappy city I call my temp bachelor home…without her I’d probably be poking every god damn person’s eyes out here…so yeah as i was saying my best friend ‘chicken spanker’ has become a totally crappy and insensitive beeeeech and started a countdown to torment me till she leaves well here is major NEWS FOR YOU B*#@%!!!!!prepare yourself for some major bright illustrations every week….you’ll get majorly lesbian YOU COMPLETE ME letters for a long long time 4 years to be precise….
In a totally unrelated subject i have been asked to come to college almost everyday to practise two lines for a play in which I don’t even have a name for two bloody hours….FML
this is epic torture for one month….bbut why would anyone listen instead ppl will be proud of this achievement….little do they know ehh!!!?!?!I MUST GET NEW FRIENDS!!!!SERIOUSLY
oh and best thing ever i have just added another person to my crush list two ppl actually…god i must get a life soon it’s becoming really annoying now!!!And i realised telling your best friend about these things is not really a good idea because then you get to hear way to many disgusting sex jokes which makes life more depressing than ever…you can’t even get flavoured straws without listening to a suck on iit joke….siigghhhhhh now you know why i whine sooo much!!!!
anyways soooo m like superbored now and i refuse to type any further so enjoy O’amazingly bored souls around the world!!!! :-* nitey nite

Amazing Trivia you have to know is that our blood is salty cuz we come from the sea-courtesy some bloke from IMF as guest lecturer

College,mid sem marks,coffee,friends and work

devilme619 — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 20:15:53 +0000

Today when I woke p I thought Oh-my-God its going 2 b a perfect sunny and bright day…and i did not in any manner refer to the weather(which eventually was very annoyingly very sunny) it just felt like one of the awesome days….but just after 15 minutes it was ruined starting wit the msg from my best friend saying that she has lost the only true copy I had for my place but it wasn’t that bad cuz hey we lose things right but ten I realized I ad 2 get ready fast n hence my usual WHERE THE HELL ARE MY CLOTHES ritual…it was going well I put Ares in his room wit hos toys n food n water got a rick in time only 2 realize again in front of my college gate that I don’t have my college I.D. in my bag and the security guard refused to believe that I am NOT a terrorist and m not going 2 blow up d place I barely go to….but who can argue with ppl in uniform they apparently run the country so I waited an hour and 15 minutes outside my college’s gate asking my friends to do something and again best friend to the rescue she gets my copy of I-card and i had me fee receipt and after a major interrogation about my name n everything I was finally let in that one place I now hate soooooooo much…after going in I realized that my batch-mates are nowhere to be found and hence all the waiting was useless…:’(
And so after cursing and swearing at lots of random ppl I finally decided to check my mid semester marks where again I was told that because of low attendance I have been deprived of decent marks in the subject I want to major in…I mean like dude seriously have some mercy on cute girls who volunteer 4 NGO that saves stray small animals!!!!sooo after all that misery i thought I’ll treat myself wid some nice food….but d place I wanted 2 go was shut n den d hunt 4 a nice place began my friend is very very random in her behavior and suddenly has discovered how much she loves walking therefore I was made to walk on empty lanes in scorching heat…but then we found this really awesome coffee place to which we now have loyalty cards tooo P.S. the place is called sugardough…all hail sugardough..its a tiny place in pun near D.B.C where u have yummiest coffees in India they beat barista and CCD by million points!!!after just half and hour of happiness I had to leave for my volunteer work at ResQ this really nice NGO I volunteer with where we rescue stray cats and dogs and give them free treatment…work was kind of dull today but I like the vet a lot soooo its fun with her and there is a new puppy who runs around us the whole day so its kinda crazy!!!!
I thought the series of bad events was over but I guess it was real early to say that I just spoke to my sister and no that’s not one of the bad events she just updated me on the news that if I get a backlog in my one subject in my internal exams n fail 2 give d retest I’ll be getting an ATKT the next year……OMG I am going 2 faint now!!!

My Stupid Valentine!!!

devilme619 — Sun, 14 Feb 2010 19:59:14 +0000

My hypothetical love life is now over….I feel deprived of a crazy base in my life now …but anyways there is this guy I know for like what 10 years now….I mean no know know we were classmates n stuff in skool but den I left dat skool loads of things happened but anyways the thing is we met again thru d whole crazy cyber world thing facebook and stuff and ten we chatted stupid things but funny and if you read my blog often you’ll the kind of girl I am…I as usual have again fallen for another guy who I doubt likes me but it doesn’t matter to me…I shall now obsess about him all day long and hope that he just asks me out one day!!!
So today being Valentine’s day I’d written about how is not rally making a difference in my life and te sual self obsessed crap early morning I get a msg from him wishing me a happy valentine’s day….bu the thing is he knows I had a crush on him before and e keeps on calling me loooouuuve…
The signs say he likes me but wat if”I am not the exception but m d rule”-he’s just not that into you(movie)…I don’t want to tell him about how I feel and look like a complete loser which again he calls me very often…I am just soo confused..I adore him for soooo many things…like
1. during my exams wen I couldn’t find notes for the poetry he actually sent me d stuff.
2.there was this time when I was really upset and he spoke to me till the time I was laughing.
3.He told me is deepest secrets.
4.I get to bug him as much as I want to he complains but never leaves mid-way.
5.He was ready to help me with a guy(to which I refused thank you very much)
6.He is rude but in a nice way I swear I can’t explain this but its like that.
7.he is as self-obsessed as I am.
8.we have random conversations middle of the night about stealing chocolates specially when he is drunk.
9.He is just there always coincidence maybe but he just puts a smile on my face wen m sad…
10.most important e listens wen I talk like really listen…
Why doesn’t he ask me out???I mean I don’t even care if he has bad shoe taste or like capsicums and tomatoes or even knows shit about animes…for the first time all I care about is m not able 2 be with him and its killing me.And te stupid human is toooo thick headed to notice that…:’(
I want my funny guy 4 d next valentine’s day

The agonizing pain of cooking

devilme619 — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 03:59:18 +0000

Yesterday for the 1st time something really inspired me,if anyone is wondering well I was watching julie and julia the movie.And when I saw all that drool worthy food I thought ‘Hey why don’ I cook for myself today!’…..And then after hours of slogging in the kitchen it finally struck me that chicken takes a lot more time to cook than I thought….Obviously am no julia child or as the French say Madame Cheeld but seriously burning a chapati is something only I can do its not everyday that you’ll see a poor hungry girl trying to cook a simple chicken curry and chapati meal for herself and ends up very literally burning it I mean how in the world does a simple flour dough catch fire!!!So I finally ended up with a black butt roti with d half cooked curry I made…..So please someone lemme correct myself ANYONE who reads this blog pray for me so that one day I learn how to cook my food like a normal person and not overcooking or even undercooking for that matter!!!!So I shall close now I got coffee to make hopefully I don’t ruin that tooo

Blabbering about my hypothetical love life!!!!:P

devilme619 — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 16:03:57 +0000

I have finally done it…..As much as i hate to admit it I have finally for an actual human you know a guy without fangs or a total makeover during fll moons or even an olympian….Its actually a male HOMOSAPIEN!!!!
Lemme be a stalkerish ‘CREEP’ as my bff calls me and describe the cuteness that i adore with my heart….
1st of the guy hates capsicum and tomatoes i mean thats like 100 points to you baby…..:D
2nd He is a nerd herd leader….heee heee…big surprise right I always tought I’ll like the bad boy kind…
3rd…He knows what animes are and to make life sooooo much more better he can actually draw them!!!!
4th…loves animals sooooo much that his house actually looks like a shelter for the homeless….*sigh*
5th got the cutest smile I can ever imagine on a guys face….aahhhhhhh
6th….calls his blog a bloggy…i know to many it sounds kinda sissy(m not using any word that maybe offensive to anyone…peace ya all)but to me its a BLOGGY!!!!!
7th has he craziest hair of all times its like Robert Pattinson mixxed with Zac Effron…..
8th watches grey’s anatomy loves HP and THE TWILIGHT saga i mean hulloooooo wat else do i need….
9th….he makes me feel all wobbly whenever he is around!!!!well thats got to mean something right
10th….the most important thing to me for the first time truly ever I haven’t cared about pretending to be nice…with him around I jus feel happier…:D….
So like I ave mentioned this above also I have never really done his whole love thing ever this is te most painfully happy time of my life…..Gosh I love this moron like crazy and like my bff Nirmala Bai(no this is not her real name I just lik calling her this) says”Your hypothetical lover will take you in his arms and never leave you”I just wish that it comes true…:P
So anyone with any tip that can hlp me steal MY PERFECT GUY from the chicka comment….God knows how much I need this!!!!!!!

million reasons 2 hate your sister’s boyfriend

devilme619 — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 21:43:52 +0000

hey all d really lame 4 readers dat i have….m back wid another stupid blog….yippppeeee!!!!
This is solely dedicated to my elder sister’s boyfriend…..ummmmm so where do i start…i was thinking more of a 10 reasons list but den i don’ they’ll fit in…
So alll u ppl wid an elder sibling tis is something i hope u can relate to and if not i swear ask ur brother or sister to lend some brains to my stupid sister….
10 REASONS TO HATE YOUR SISTER’S SO CALLED LOVE….

1.they think that getting drunk is the only way to enjoy life which i totally doubt cuz i hate d next morning feeling

2.The guy takes every second of ur sister’s life for himself and lets say she doesn’t have a life at all….

3.Hits infront of you

4.And when you stop that abuses u too

5.is the most amzingly &*%$#@ up loser on earth

6. is nothing but a rich daddy’s spoilt son.

7.hates animals like a baby….i mean seriosly a puppy scares u dats disturbing

8. is all nice to u on ur face and is bitchier dan a teenag girl behnd ur back….seriously have d balls 2 say it on my face like i do….SO MANY TIMES….

9.are just toooo ignorant of d fact dat no1 except d girlfriend likes u..

10..THE MOST IMPORTANT THING ON EARTH….MY SISTER DESERVES BETTER WAY MUCH BETTER!!!!!SHE IS JUST TOOO BLIND 2 SEE DAT.

The only ppl m ever geting serious about is my family and my bffs and i’ll kick anyone’s butt if dey hurt dem…
So i hope this new year my sister tries to use her brains and breaks up wid d bugger or m disowning her…..
But like all of us know good tings never happen in this sucky world…

so i predict a not so bright future…
next new year 2011 i’ll b writing anotr blog on how i shold probably try 2 un-disown my sister….

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!!!!!
P.S. every review is welcome here xcept stupid sex jokes dat arent related u can send dem wen i post sumthing stupid like dat….kay
Enjoy bloggers

Ares my savior!!!!

devilme619 — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 18:06:35 +0000

All of us must have had one of those days when with each and every moving second tha day just seems to get worse and worse…well today was one of the sucky days 4 me.Ummmmm…yeah so like I’ve mentioned already in my previous blog that my exams are going on welll yeah i was supposed 2 study yesterday night too but being the evil person I am i wanted to bestow my boring blogs on my fellow readers…:D so anyways like I said i was supposed to be studying but after i finished up my blog I found my crush online….so well u know I ummm got kinda busy and after dat was over I obviously had to call up my best friend 2 tell her about the completely ridiculous rendezvous and den call up my mum n dad n sister n den one thing led to another n i completely forgot about studying…yeah well things like des DO HAPPEN!!!so anyways i went off 2 sleep now dat m on my hibernation mode only 2 b woken up by my mum an hour b4 my exam!!!like i said things like des DO HAPPEN!!!neways soo instead of being alll OMG OMG!!!!i very proudly went 2 give my exam only 2 discover that tis is going 2 be my favourite one…I knew nothing about what was being asked i wrote almost d same sentences with every drop of criticism I could come up with for the government!!!so anyways i finished up d whole thing in an hour dragged my friend 4m a lecture n den went 4 d shittiest movie on earth(about which der will b a blog tomorrow)..so after dat v had amazing hot dogs went window shopping it was all good until v had 2 come back home….nut fortunately my friend who has been taking care of my foster puppy ARES 4 d past 4 days called me 2 tell me dat my baby is whining 4 me again…I ran my way to him n just as I saw thosse beady black eyes and the tiny little wet nose all the stupidity of the day was forgotten and the only thing in my mind was God I’ve missed my sleepy bugger…and even now I just can’t stop smiling because even when he sleeps he is still an angel to me…though he loves destroying my soft toys…he brings joy d moment you set your eyes on him….Thats why Ares is my baby and my super hero when it comes to crappy days!!!